Dear Future Self:
This will serve as a reminder of how strong you are and serve as an assurance that their will be a rainbow after this storm. This will remind you of who you truly are. This will remind you that you dont need to stop your world for one person who will eventually leave you. This will remind you of the girl you once were. The girl who loved with all her heart and does everything with effort. This will assure you that better days are just around the corner and everything does get better. This will assure you that people are taken away to make way for better ones. This is a reminder that in order to be strong you need to know what may hurt you. This is a reminder that love comes with sacrifice and it isnt as great as it sounds like. This is a reminder that no matter how many times you fall, you can always get back up.
We learned that people are given to us on loan. They’ll eventually leave. We learned how fast something becomes what we have to what we had. We learned that behind the facades of happiness is a struggling face of grief. We learned that the wounds wear off and turns into scars but the pain lasts forever.
We learned a lot from every scar on your wrist. One for the first time you broke your heart. One for the time you thought your world was falling apart. One for the time when everyone else seemed numb to what you felt. One for the time you thought it was the only solution.One for the time you told yourself “I am not going down this dark road again.” One for the time you questioned your existence. One for the pain and another for the sorrow. One for the time you asked yourself “Why?”
We learned that everyone you lose is not always a loss.We learned that falling apart is a way to discover the true reasons why you need to fall back together. And in those reasons lie why you are still reading this right now. You discovered the reasons to go on. You discovered that giving up so easily is never a solution. You discovered that the world you once knew that broke apart was just a opportunity for a new beginning. You discovered tons of reasons to make you go on and you discovered it in each and every one of the people you love the most.
We learned that new beginnings meant new hellos and new goodbyes. We learned that there are different kinds of pain that comes with every hi and goodbye you’ve said. Different kinds of pain in every I love you and I’m sorry you have sent. Different kinds of pain in every tear and laughter you have shed. Different kinds of pain in every picture and message you deleted. Different kinds of pain in every memory you chose to forget. Different kinds of pain hidden in what once were dreams now nightmares. Different kinds of pain that came with the people that left you. And with those different kinds of pain, you grew and you learned. With those different kinds of pain came different kinds of lessons and different kinds of strengths. With those different kinds of pain you saw different sides of you that make up who you are now, and who you choose to be.
We learned our boundaries and limits. We learned how it was to love and be loved.
We learned to accept ourselves.
We learned to be ourselves
We learned. Thats what is important we learned.
This is a reminder that you will learn. In every fallback and success you will learn. This is an assurance that you will indeed learn to get back up. This is an assurance that the clouds will soon clear up. This is a reminder of the girl you once were and the lady that you will be. This is me reminding myself that in order to move on you need to know who you once were. Always remember where you started because it will pave the way on who you will be.