- I hate the way you smile
And make me feel like I’m on cloud nine every time.
I hate how it makes my day ten times ten brighter than it is.
I hate how it shines and blinds me in seeing the truth.
That behind your smile is a grieving cry.
- I hate how you talk.
You make everything else seem like a joke.
You make believe in lies that say everything’s going to be alright.
You make me believe in lies that say you’re never leaving my side.
- I hate the way you changed
I knew you as someone who would never leave
And as someone who would laugh at the simplest of jokes
But now you’re turning into someone else
Someone I don’t know
Someone I wouldn’t want to know
Someone I feared to know.
- I hate how unpredictable you are
Every day with you is a guessing game
You’re inconsistent, there’s no routine
One day you’re giving me butterflies
Next day you’re out the door.
- I hate your eyes
The way you look makes me melt
Your eyes feel like home
But at the same time it feels like a different territory
Its home and a strange place at the same time
Your eyes make me drown in emotion
Your eyes show a different reflection of me.
But your eyes never showed what you saw in me.
- I hate the way you cry
It makes me feel the pain you’re going through
Your cry is my kryptonite.
I hate how it weakens my heart even during the times that I’m stone-heartedly angry.
I hate how it makes me feel pity and wanting myself to bleed for you.
- I hate your touch
Your hugs are one my deepest weaknesses
They make me feel like I’m safe.
They make me feel like nothing can hurt me.
But it also makes me miss you more.
It makes me want you more.
Even now that you’re no longer mine.
- I hate your hands
The way they clasp onto mine.
The way it seems to be perfectly rest to mine.
I hate it.
Your hands make me believe that I can count on you anytime.
It makes me believe that you won’t let go.
But you did, well you are
Slowly, slipping away.
- I hate your writing
It’s perfect, that’s why.
Your writing reflects how perfectly well organized your thoughts are.
But it never seemed to reflect how you really feel inside.
- I hate how you cared for me
You always needed to know what’s happening
You always needed to know what I’m feeling
I hate how you cared for me yet I never felt it directly.
You never caught me when I fell.
But you helped me be whole again after being broken.
You were always there to listen to me cry
Yet you were never there to hear me say goodbye.
Then I thought all these caring meant more than nothing.
But turns out I was just dreaming .
- I hate your unclear vision
I hate it.
How you never saw me coming
How you never even noticed me leaving
I hate how you never saw me as the one by your side.
I hate how you never saw me as the one who loved you.
I hate how you saw everybody else clearly but me.
- I hate my thoughts about you
They ambush me when I lay awake.
They kill me slowly even when I close my eyes.
They remind me of everything I love and hate about you.
I hate it because it also reminds me of the reasons why I should’ve ran after you.
- But what I hate the most
Is the way I love you.